I crave a more natural space
something physical
but more so mental
in my more lucid moments
this all too clearly my tender
conscience doth state
my heart tends to need
far fewer and deeper breaths
the lungs comply whenever they can
as oxygen just so happens to be
their modus opperundi
a unilateral lead to the layman
if you will
yet I must further ponder
where is the essence of true sense
in such pods of self made madness
and to whom can I quickest confess
other than God it is this plain speaker's
page of course
this overly crowded jumble of emotions
that plagues my very soul
longs for such fueled dramatic freedom
perhaps a finer form of fertile, frank
expression
woven almost from a hierarchy of the spirit
the swift realization of such incredible
pounding upon the senses
keeps a sort of lease with clout to terrify
where in this could be release
possibly in the deepest needs recesses
to simply let go
the negative wails at the frightful probability
of its final destination
'no more'
I am not worried over such departing though
as it cheers my positive on the higher
aspirations
no holds barred success
ah but thee doth hath a truly notable name
and I do indeed now know it well
attitude......................
(Jan. 3, 1999)