I chance upon another
his name said he was yours
and my joy from memories past
upon hearing that very name
spoken aloud to me
stepped brilliantly forth
and hugged me so incredibly close
my breath forgot its path
as my pathetic ecstatic heart lurched
in silent surrender
the essence that was you
still so sweetly shields me
the simple thought of your dark
enveloping voice
can shut out some of the coldest realities
I've ever endured
I am my own greatest champion
because of you
you are here with me always
as deep as you've ever been
deeper still in many ways
death only thinks its stolen you
I just keep missing your shell
which is all too human
as I've seen
still, the most beloved part of you
is ever safe
your incredible deathless
unseparated soul
keeps whispering to me
BE STRONG
SOON MY MIEL
A LIFETIME IS NOT ALL THAT LONG
JUST A SERIES OF INHALED BREATHS
OUR FUSION OF SPIRIT WILL BE ALL THE
MORE SWEETER
AFTER THIS FORCED BANNER OF SEPARATION
WE SHALL HAVE AN ETERNITY TO BLEND
INTO EACH OTHER
UNRESTRAINED
God keeps vidual on our progress
but I miss you M.A.k.
I miss your balcony
I miss your laugh
I miss hearing you kiss my pictures good night
I miss every tiny little shared nuance of our
time together
the things in paradise I can not recall
but the presence of your soul there now
makes me long to return
to such joys of closeness
that never needs to sleep
its that very first infinitesimal
second of death that I so long for
for that is where your smile awaits me
and your abundantly offered happy hugs
will be all mine to always keep
at last I'll be truly in Heaven
I'll have my M.A.K. ever always with me
paradise lost or regained
I think not
Paradise will stand instead
shaking her jealous fist at me
for my M.A.K. was never truly hers............
(written Oct. 11, 2002 11pm)