PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

I project
a being of lightheartedness
humor and good
often smiling smiles
as tall as billboards even
I've been told
and for the most part
those are attributes
I do possess
abundantly
but to be honest
these days of last
much of it is a facade
you see
I don a clever mask
and project a carefree
laugh
engaging others to join
me in my great good fun
but it's a blanket you see
that I throw on the sadness
just to help it keep warm
I feel so very alone
I, as you know have
an astronomical love
all my own
I've written about him
in cherished variations of detail
but so many things have gone
wrong
not between he and I
but on the path we are
taking to get to each other
I know it's meant to be
and I trust God implicitly
but all that is spiritually
its the every day
too human woman side
of myself
that is so painfully lost
my life feels like its a riddle
hidden in a jigsaw puzzle
and I'm just waiting
for it to be finished
so I can experience
with my own two eyes
how the end product will be
I know that analogy
sounds far beyond silly
but everything is changing so fast
and I feel like I've nobody to hold onto
when I feel the floor yet again
shift underneath me
my amazing him would be there
if he could
and to his strength and fearless
out look he would hold me flush
but he has so much of his own
baggage to deal with right now
that I don't feel right burdening him
and so all I can do is pray
I'm so lost God, please help me
find me again
light my path out of this great
scary void of utter nothingness
and let my energy force burst forth
ever the better
for just having been
previously so dampened since some
years hence......................
(June 28, 2010 110am)