One Day

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First Love

One of these days maybe I'll let him know

All the things that have been too hard to show

I'll tell him that I hate him for the awful things he did to me

I'll fill him in on what an awful person he can be

I wonder if he would understand

Sometimes I really don't think he can

But i would do my best to fill him in

Tell him all about the pain I feel because of him

I'll tell him that he thinks she's going to be enough

But one day he'll see what he wants is love

I'll tell him about how he's going to regret

Everything he did that I just can't forget

If he tries to tell me he really does care

I will let him know hes not getting anywhere

I'll tell him that I finally know how he is

And if he cared he wouldn't treat me like this

"Maybe if you respeced my feelings," I'll say

"And maybe if you didn't play all the games you play

Then you could say that you care for me

But I know that will never be"

I'll tell him these things without a tear in my eye

I'll let him think that to me he's just another guy

I won't tell him about how at night he's all I think of

I won't tell him about how I am still in love

I will tell him off like I don't even care

And then I'll leave him standing there

Then he'll be the one asking why

And maybe, just maybe, then he'll start to cry

He'll realize how it feels to see them walk away

Maybe he'll be the one to hurt when he sees me everyday

'Cause he needs to know how this feels to me

And one day I'll try so hard to make him see

I'll act like him, that's what I'll do

And finally maybe then, he'll love me too



--Fall 2001

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Yeah, I spent a lot of time chasing Jered before we actually got together...it was pretty pathetic, but hey, i was 16.

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