One of these days maybe I'll let him know
All the things that have been too hard to show
I'll tell him that I hate him for the awful things he did to me
I'll fill him in on what an awful person he can be
I wonder if he would understand
Sometimes I really don't think he can
But i would do my best to fill him in
Tell him all about the pain I feel because of him
I'll tell him that he thinks she's going to be enough
But one day he'll see what he wants is love
I'll tell him about how he's going to regret
Everything he did that I just can't forget
If he tries to tell me he really does care
I will let him know hes not getting anywhere
I'll tell him that I finally know how he is
And if he cared he wouldn't treat me like this
"Maybe if you respeced my feelings," I'll say
"And maybe if you didn't play all the games you play
Then you could say that you care for me
But I know that will never be"
I'll tell him these things without a tear in my eye
I'll let him think that to me he's just another guy
I won't tell him about how at night he's all I think of
I won't tell him about how I am still in love
I will tell him off like I don't even care
And then I'll leave him standing there
Then he'll be the one asking why
And maybe, just maybe, then he'll start to cry
He'll realize how it feels to see them walk away
Maybe he'll be the one to hurt when he sees me everyday
'Cause he needs to know how this feels to me
And one day I'll try so hard to make him see
I'll act like him, that's what I'll do
And finally maybe then, he'll love me too
--Fall 2001