My twisted situation
is so unfortunate
'Cause I'm the one who let it go
Let it slip away
And I still know
There were so many reasons why
Somehow they've lost their significance
Although I know
If you were here
and I had you as my adoring lover
The reasons I knew
Would resurface
And I'd be stuck in that place
again
So why
Is there this random hope in me
Trying to tell me
convince me
That somehow now
it would be my everything
and there wouldn't be that fear
not letting me
cherish the beauty I had
I try to stop it
shove that hope out of my heart
And remember
why
and re-feel
How I knew
We weren't right
But the hope holds on
and kees on asking
"what if you were wrong?"
-February 2006