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Falling into it again

free fall into a bit of hell

It happens everytime

I get lost inside

I think its gone away

But its never gone to stay

It gets worse and worse

And I'm not even sure what hurts



I can withstand the trials

I get so sure I will get by

But then the old ways kick in

and i can never win

Its as if i'm eternally possessed

with this internal unhappiness



I don't understand my ways

Why I can't just change

I get so close to it and then

I'm messed up inside again

The inner pain leads to shame

Disappointed in my own name



Can't just perservere like you

Have to struggle just to get through

For awhile life goes smoothly

Then something ruins it for me

Not necessarily just one thing

It sneaks in before I recognize it



And then I have to start all over

Lost again, another day older

I'm afraid i'll die before it ends

never get to live without this mess

I can't stop this neverending wave

I know I need to just be brave



I climb, I know I can get out again

But it's  rather discouraging when

I know eventually I'll slide back down

And struggle again to get out

Once I'm there maybe i can find a way

To stay out of the pain of living this way