its aim
further scrutiny
fear for it being over
habit his little lever
dose dependent curve
everything disapearing
we all look at music factory now like its this corny if not iconic bit of non threating criterion
sandstorm
i remember wherever near pratt
two, three o clock in the morning
a few inches of fresh snow pack
on the high train platform above a street- which they repurpose for another neighborhood everytime you loose sight of it
abby bertsch- i got cut in on by some fucking yuppie in 2005 brooklyn hipster warehouse party and she walked right past him, back to me
i felt like i never had to be on my guard again
pot brownie didnt work, shots of absinthe
the pot- our pot
-...-
starting from floor ine
we examine electronegativity from the inside out
oxygen can fit so many places- as can the smaller halogen
and we find ubiquity in her bonding
it all appears to give off- we will call it heat but we really mean free energy
burning
what we are doing at the most basic level
respiring- burning gently
the gasses find your lungs and ionize the shit out of your cytoplasm
all kinds of oxidative stresses
electrical nightmares
expression pattern reflects- whatever expression pattern reflects on the titanic
denatured, leaking and floppy
environmental systems in play- cell to cell signaling, whole neighborhoods of meat
they try to die to quarantine itself
but they cant
tumor- no
necrotic blotching- tendrils sticking up in big middle fingers to your brain
evoke images finally
and youl feel this
at last
vomiting or shitting yourself
i often think of drowning and feeling the water enter the lung
this time you try to breathe in water
and it fucking works
the gasses- these very nasty gasses
they water split
hydrogen and oxygen opposite poles and you feel it
what was killing you before squelched with the greater element water
the element not as fundamental unit but what is most obviously basic
the most abundant with the most available reactive
some second messenger
something sweet
inside of you
ive known you forever
abby
radha
things that boil down to
things that you notice
and themes of everything- even itself- on tv- in informational brochures- college textbooks- multiverse-a simple atom-
we draw from larger energy producing systems
its unsustainable for all but the shortest timescales
that seems like such an eternity for the relativistic solutes
colorless trapped
displacing what it might be but for pressures- proton guns- high power magnets
little girls blow bubbles
what a place they might have picked for it
slopes affect movement- what it might have caught on, like a stream- densities
never defeated her on these familiar time scales
leads to a duty
not becaause your jati
but because you understand the girl blowing on human timescales and it seems proper to extend it
and you know that it will, the blowing, disintegrate the earth
the more you realize it the more it takes to engage
grignard
fisher indole
wolfe kichner
someones reagent
how those 2 dimensions of solids turn to color
to color
to color
physical electricity in a spacial stone or ball or something yes everywhere at the same time but there, matter for christ sake
to color