live the life i so long to die

would you kill me

if you knew who i really

was??

i'm listening to hanson

and i'm crying in my hands

i can't figure it all out

i can't figure it all out





27 buddies on and your not one

of them

should i even call you that?

my buddy?

"you've never been kissed"

dont sound so shocked

i'm not the whore i'm made out to be



if i'm fallen or broken

i would understand why

you'd be at my door to pick me up

but i'm not yours anymore

and i'm not falling or broken

i just wish you would

give me a reason

for the insanity that your

making me go through







50 bobby pins

30 minutes later

10 seconds long







i'm dying

you killed me

and suddenly i'm dead

inside and my heart

is broken into two



there is nothing more for

me to do

except give up

lock myself in

leave you behind

and live the life

i so long to die

Author's Notes/Comments: 

i'm so angry right now,being shut down hurts. and i'm not a whore or a lesbian or bi or anythign else. i'm jsut frustrated and hurt i'm hurt real bad. and all anyone can do is just shut me out like they're doin right now. i hate you all i really do becuase you hate me and its an awful feelign to be rejected right now. maybe you should all just die or leave me alone wichever is more convenient for you. i'm leaving now beforei actually tell you to die. grr

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