How can this be,
I hear the words
But they don’t make sense to me.
‘’I have cancer’’
What does it suddenly mean.
I read your mouth
But it doesn’t speak to me.
In quiet moments,
I watch the rain
And I ask God, again and again.
Why this, why her.
I want to shield her from the pain.
I want to tell her it will be okay
But i can’t find the right thing to say
I fear the gift of flowers,
Filling the rooms of our house
Reminding us,
What they feel sorry about
I want to turn off the tv.
I want to say, Not her
Not us
Not me
‘’I have cancer’’
I hear the words,
But they don’t speak to me.