somedays i cant escape the feeling
it comes over me like a tidal wave
and it washes me ashore and says
I'm a fool and i've been played
Somedays i can't look myself in the eye
I can't tell myself to be brave,
I feel defeated, deflated,
Slandered and slated,
Ashamed of my very own name
And then in comes the rage,
In comes the pain,
The numbness, that says
What dumbness!
To give someone your love in vain
And I can't face myself
And I can't face the shame.
Then I look at my son and I know,
That I've done the right thing, and this baby will grow
Into a man who respects me for the choices i've made
That I didn't settle for no bullshit
And thats what frees me
From being your slave.