Pain has ruined me.
It has taken my innocence from me
It has broken my trust,
My hope, my faith.
In that I always have to have plan B,
I always have to think of another way.
I can never enjoy the moment,
Never give myself fully,
I must always prepare for the worst ,
So in turn you only get part of me,
The shadow of who I used to be
Before I let the men before you,
Change me.