I wanted to live my life for myself
Like a single pearl ,
beautiful and pure
Undiscovered,
Laying on some shore.
Like an immortal,
Lost on planet earth
Not a person or a human
or a woman or a girl.
I was terrified of feelings
growing, and fluttering,
Living and breathing
quietly breeding
beneith my breast
I didn't want this mess-
I did not ask for it,
I wanted only to never need a thing,
And to never cry
Over anything.
I Cry
over things that make no sense, have no solution, or the cause exists in the past. I dry my eyes, take a deep breath and go do small tasks very slowly. Works for me - Stella