I struggle to sleep
In foreign beds
Without your heart beat
Next to mine
And I struggle to see things
In clear vision
And sound mind
When I try living
Without you in my life
You don't care
For tears shed
Or words written
No you don't care
For my sorrow
Or moments shared
They are forgotten
So I won't pull my hair
And I won't grit my teeth
And I won't check my phone
And I won't search busy rooms
And if I see you someday soon
I won't search your eyes
I will swollow this sad poem
And hold my head up high.