My heart is flooded with rich desires
a burning fire consumes my soul
creating a hole
My inner longings are near fulfillment
the possibility is within my reach
Is there something You are trying to teach?
Twice this has come about
and with disappoinment
it was put out
delayed and leaving me feeling depraved inside
I tried to abide in Christ
yet stubbornly held to my unbelief
and fueled the grief
I prayed, You promised
I swayed, You admonished
After all these years
and the wiped-away tears
Do I still not trust,
that You God are just?
I've never failed to excel
in praying for Your will, not my own
yet these emotions are making me groan
I know You are good, and You desire to bless me
but often I feel, like You're only trying to test me
Will I still love You, if I don't get what I want?
Are all of my feelings redundant?
Your word tells me they're valued
By Your strength they are subdued
They aren't hidden from Your sight
Lord, be my delight.