My heart is pierced
with agonizing regret
the sorrow tumbles down my throat
flowing deep within its chambers
How could I miss the fact
that my sin doesn't just hurt me...
it hurts God? My Creator, my Savior?
My soul is like an earthquake...
full of tremors and aftershocks
sometimes even murderous
toward the people closest to me
Why do I have to be so selfish,
craving for my own way?
I've been wounded by many
in my lifetime
so why do I now
have to wound others
in order to protect myself?
Is there not an easier way
to guard my heart, while
sharing it with those who need it?
I roll the dice to the game
representing my life
but they always end up
underneath a table,
and I never know how many
steps to take.
I have to trust God
with everything,
the hardest thing to do,
and yet the only thing
He asks for:
To love Him and trust Him
because He knows what's best
and desires to show me
the secrets of His heart,
which contains nothing
but beauty and gems.
While my heart harbors
evil and pride; rusty nails
that are dull and of no use.
Yet God, my heavenly Father
wishes to trade all my filth
with His mansion full of
heavenly treasures.
From litter to pearls
He can change me
He can change us all..
And through His endless mercy,
unfailing love and sufficient grace...
that's exactly what He does.
And with this knowledge
we can have hope.
Hope that we don't have to be
stuck in a neverending
cesspool of emptiness and dissatisfaction.
Hope that we don't just have
to live life, but experience it,
with our hand in the palm of His.