My mind has come to rest,
for the first time,
in a very long time.
You open my pandora's box,
you released me like no other.
The chaos,
and turmoil inside
has finally come out.
But I hope it wasn't too much,
I don't want to you leave,
not now.
Not ever.
I know I am still a mess,
and I need to work things out.
I realize I have not changed that much,
and I don't know if that's a good thing or not.
I had to hide myself away,
I couldn't be free,
as I was with you.
I didn't know that I had done that.
I knew I would have to sacrifice,
but not to that extent.
I held back for so long,
but I don't know how to be myself still.
I don't know how much of 'me'
others can take.
But I'm tired of hiding,
I don't want to be something
I am not.
I'm tired of being hidden away.
I want to stay out for good.