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she knows that there is something that im hiding
she knows that there is something on my mind
she can tell that im not really there
that im not really together today
she sees past my fake smiles but she wont say anything
i know she sees though me and yet i dont care
i dont say wut im really thinking or anything for that matter
i dont really speak the truth i never have
i guess my whole life i have lied and been lied to
so lieing really comes to me like a really bad habit
i dont get why i dont just tell her
why i dont just break down and scream in their faces
all i want to do is cry and die but i cant they wont let me
all i have left is my lies of deception
and she knows all of this
she asks me everytime if there is anything i want to talk about
i always tell her no everything is fine
she gives me a look and backs off because she knows i wont give
i always try to tell her something anything that is on my mind
but everytime i try to speak my brain shuts down and i go blank
its like a curse one that i have put on myself
i used to control when i would act like nothing is wrong
but now i cant control anything i look like i'm always happy
when in reality i am falling apart inside
she used to be able to sees through the lies and smiles
but she cant now i fool even the toughest
so im sorry but she cant know anymore its time to move on
time to see that no one can save me from the lies of deciet
no one can help not even me