I've never been
this way before
forgetting more
than I can recall
I'm drinking less
but drinking still
its kind of funny
I always wanted
to just give up
too much of a coward
I could never be so clever
but here I sit
a little intoxicated
a little sad
forgetting more than
I'm remembering
missing what I've never had
it doesn't matter too
much these days
life is wonderful
filled with gray haze
and its a maze
but I've found my way
reveling in my loneliness
sucking up my tears
laughing until it hurts
facing my fears
my pen
my keystrokes
the chatter in my mind
flows thru me
and into another line
forever freezing time