I'm wrestling with
the antics
of what we are supposed to be
your sexy lips
are becoming
so much more a part of me
I'm loving you
and you don't even know
I push you away
say I need my space
you always
always comply
your stoned colored eyes
see me
for what I really am
an insecure
little girl
trying to love
the only way I can
your intelligence
is shinning
your so very strong
I give you what you ask for
even if I feel its wrong
I'm leaving you soon
I know this unsettles you
but I have no choice
I have to do what is my destiny
call it my responsibility
even if I don't want to
cuz what I want to do
is hold you
and give you all I've got
but I know I'm
not the one for you
a sentiment you have forgot
your young and need your freedom
you cant give me what I want
a loving man
to hold my hand
and build a family like a rock
I cant give you children
I have too many of my own
so the love I carousel
around you is all I have to show
your not a toy to me
even though my friends think so
your stoned washed eyes
look through me
when I tell you I cant find my way home
tomorrow is a turning point
I wait to see
how badly or good this
movie will turn out to be
I love you and
you don't know this
cuz I'm afraid to say the words