she's so beautiful
this I've always known
her smile is like gold
her conversation feels like home
I guess that's why
her betrayal hurt me so
eyes like wine
lips like grapes
but how they lie
I could never get the taste
I have wanted to pick up a phone
send a message that no one
can know
but in the end I ask
what good
after all of this?
wishes never come true
time machines have never
broken through
the ring I had
is long gone
its meaning lost
before it was ever worn
I have to admit
I loved her
wanted more from her
wanted her to be more like me
wanted her to simply see
see what?
I don't know
her words were so
inviting
she promised
so much without
talking
bitter beers
buckets of tears
she doesn't know
how much she fucked me up
she does now
and when she's near
I watch her
and drink her in
like my liquor
wish I could talk a while
wish I could just tell
her how I feel
but thoughts are jumbled
intentions misconstrued
it isn't anything
that has to do
with him, me and you
my veins ache
for leisure and the
pleasure
of an intelligent conversation
something of mind stimulation
that only she can do
I guess my old friend
I miss you
and I wonder if you miss me too
c'mon over
can we talk a while
its been ages
since I've seen you
tell me how is life
how is love
is everything better
for you now?
your eyes look sad
I know its your dad
I know how much you
loved HIM too
infectious
and inviting
but oh those lips
are always lying
I hope you learned
a thing or two
since then I have
made some friends
like puzzle pieces
we seem to fit
attention whores
boys in hordes
and a bartender
to serve me again
I cant complain
things aren't the same
but they aren't any
less lonelier as before
I met a boy
I chased him away
but I'm sure you knew
it was coming
I know you drink me in
like cheap gin
the way I smirk
the way I grin
can you see the sadness
in my eyes?
I have no fight
I don't care if you know
I'm alone tonight
I'm sure you already knew
after all I can safely guess
so are you
so
close the door
its cold outside
c'mon in and
let's talk awhile