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I'm tired of trying to release these feelings
inside for years i've cried all night!
Trying to survive the shit i been through in my life..
Losing my daughter at three every sense,
it ain't nothing but pain with no sign of peace.
I'm slowly losing my mind like a blind person
with no sight! I'm tired of grieving for her like she's
dead & gone to heaven when she's,still alive
somewhere on this earth..
I wish i could hold her in my arms & erase the hurt
but i cant,because I'll never see her!
My souls bothered so much pressure on my head.
like eggs my emotions are scrambled..
What can i do to ease my mental sufferings?
Nothings inside!My thoughts are interrupted.
Sometimes i don't understand my pain!it has a split
personality's,like Gemini's i never see its happy side..
God blessed my egg & sperm donor with my seed
Look what they've did to me!They let me dry now
i'm destroyed & deprived of nurturing.
I never did understand!
Shit now i just don't care why?
FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!
I don't wanna deal with this shit anymore
I don't wanna feel these feelings inside,
I'm through with these burdens!

I'm through with these sour raindrops.
No more tears exist!I want let them because i ain't
weak, I'm stronger then that.
I use to wonder when the sun was going to dry my pain..
inside i was lost worst then little red riding hood.
Now i'm gone ate by the wolf!
I wish i could of committed homicide & erase the stains
outta my life,but its stuck there like my back bone..
This is my last time expressing i rather keep my emotions
locked in a box, away from my fragile thoughts!
My mind can't take this shit no more.
I'm missing her like she's dead grieving because
i'll never see her again!
I'm grateful for her brothers presence in my life
yet,I'm missing something even more precious!
A mama i can share my emotions with.
A farther to walk along side me at my wedding.
A husband i can say g'night & wake up to his comfort & warmth.
What can i say i don't have none of those things
that make up the four letter word LOVE!!!
WHY?because i just dOn't..
I don't want 2 feel this pain nOmore..
I just dOn't!!!!!!!!!!!!