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Close 2 My Heart~*
Lastnight i laid there feeling ill inside.
Silently i prayed with what little faith i had
God please give me peace within!
It wasen't suppose to be this way,Please heal
my broken hearted wings..let me get my son
back & let me see,My daughters face again...
Please let my happiness excape from within
the demons of my pain,I'll do anything just to
see her again.Through to much i been
When is all this hurt gone end?
I went to bed praying that i be shown a sign
or a answer within...
It was bittersweet the message i was sent.
A phone call from my mom she often angers
me!With what seemz like hidden truths
within her,She briefly spoken words
through the reciver to my ears.
"I have zoria & i'll be over there later"
Emotionally stuck for a minute i finelly asked
"i thought you said"
She inttruppted like she always do!
Only this time was different,she said she'll be
there.Outside i stood with this mysterious man
thinkin to myself, She full of lies...
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
A orange cab pulled up half way on the curb,
Half way in the street!The door opened & i saw
her feet,I was in disbelief.
I coulden't belive it she appeard in front of me
wearing her short body & Long straight black
hair.Her smile set gorgeously on her face,
I was in shock!
I reached my arms out to hold her within them.
She nervously pulled back from me.
My brother stood stareing blank at me.
I was hurt by her reaction but gave her space!
We walked in a building faintly rememberable
to me.I set on the stair way watching her play
with her brother,by an unplugged cooler.
She plugged it in drinking some water!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
On her belly she laid in a grey hoody & blue
capries.I stared off in space overwelmed
by all this.she was told her hug your mom!
She slowly walked up to me & gave me a hug,
I held her tight not wanting to let go,
She begone sweetly kissing my right cheeck
repeatdly,until the dream ended.
I awaked eyes closed.
I felt the bottom of my chin wrinkled.
Within the deepness of my soul had swollen!
It felt so real this feeling i wanted to grasp
it like a rose & smell it,I couldent because it
wasen't a reailty. "Thank you jesus"
I mummbled inbetween bittersweet tears.
I wish this feeling in me was real but atleast
I got to hold her again!
I was greatful for the blessing i recived
in my dreams.I cried because i didnt
want it to end.
I wanted to keep holding her stroking her
hair between my fingers!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I wanted to continue feeling her presence
within my arms,that hug felt so real.
I didn't want to let go of her touch...
I could almost smell her scent in my nose!
This feeling i felt was bittersweet.
cries started flowing down my face,atleast
i got to hold her in my dreams & close 2 my
heart....
