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Date:12-13-09
Time:8:00Am
Mood:Missing U Deeply

I was laying here wrapped in my cover on a cold morning thinking of you. Almost like a video, your smile and laughter keepz playing repeatedy in my head. Sometimez I think I'm losing my sanity whatz left of it. You are not in my heart cuz you are my heart; I feel your beatz fading. The emotions of it is overwelming. I feel I can't breathe and my lifez slipping from within me. This pain cutz deeper than a knife so the pain doesn't burn so much; I'm trying to erase you but I cant. I can't erase you cuz your my heart and without you I will be dead. The memoriez of you are not bad but thatz all I have left of you; so it'z like torture to my soul! Almost like a beautiful nightmare I can't escape. I wish I could wake up from it see your face and tell you I love you. I try to mend the broken piecez praying that one day thingz will change 4 the best. One day my smilez want juzt be outside but inside. Where I can be more happy and at peace. I getz tired of trying to mask my pain with a smile! It'z been ten yearz and your almost thirteen. I want to hold you in my arms kiss your forehead and get back all that I lost when I lost you to someone elsez ignorance. Nothing ever last 4 ever goodbyez are killer but it would've been nice to been able to at least say that. It'z almost the hoilidayz! I wish that I could juzt spoil you and be a mother to you like I use to be, before that privilege waz wrongfully revoked. I feel I have 2 heartz, one for a different kind of love and the other for my kidz. Yes you have a brother and him and God are keeping me together juzt barely cuz nothing can ever replace you. Juzt like nothing can replace him. I wonder sometimez when you are alone do you think of me like I think of you. I wonder sometimez if we still favor each other like twinz. Do you have the same Kool-aid smile and  Chinese-shape eyez. Are you thick or skinny? Do we like the same type of music? Do you write me unanswered letterz? Do you still like taking picturez like we use to do?!? I wonder what kind of relationship you and your brother would've had? Anyway I juzt was thinking of you and wanted you to know I love and miss you very much. One day this want juzt be a beautiful nightmare but a beautiful reality where I can see you again. Mwah!!!