i left him be
hurt him more then me
was told
who he wants...
and that was not me...
but as i heard those words....
it hit me....
i need him....
...so bad...
let another one go
lost everything
i couldve had
had these feelings
that i never wanted
so scared of the truth
knowing id end up...
like this...
how could i do this?
i have to be strong
but can i just...
kill myself instead?