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How it really Feels...
I'll tell you what its like
the things you feel
the sensation of death
everything starting now
thinking about it
the craving is so strong
seeing what you could do
with a smile on your face
you feel alone
throw on a sad song
sit on your bed
and take out your blade
your hand shakes
your body doesn't want this
but you feel the need
as if you cant live without it
you take the blade
and push it into your wrist
pull down and do it slowly...
you always want to feel the pain
you then look at it
and soon enough
you'll do the other wrist
and smile
as the blood rushes to the cut
and slowly comes out
it rolls off your wrists
and onto your clothes,bed
or anything really...
the feeling to know
you could die
at any moment
you smile again
wanting it to happen
you feel alive for once
you know your there
but theres no one to hold you
no one to stop you
your hand almost covered in blood
it dries cause theres no more blood left
your alone
you look at what you've done
and wish you went just a bit deeper...
so you could end your life
how can you live like this?
why should you still be alive?
are you alone?
is this heaven?
You rock yourself asleep
crying cause you feel so stupid
but first you wash yourself
and then you sleep with pains
in your wrists,sholders,and arms...
the next day
you stop...you say "no more for me...I cant live this way..."
you tell a friend,they try to help
and yet they make things worse...
and you do it all over again
but this time death was on your mind...
