Emptiness
A messiah of bliss
An eternity to remind me of your kiss
Flames burn in shallow water
Screams echo throughout the slaughter
Forgotten memories of better days
When demons settle they all find ways
You can break through the skin
When your world starts to spin
When it all becomes to much
Longing for a soft touch
It all goes to waste
Leaving behind a bitter taste
Suck the soul dry
Leave behind your minds lie
Stare off into space
Anger to embrace
Become one with the hate
Carry it through the gate
Forget about the scum
Hold them under your thumb
Forget about the dirt
Bury it under the hurt
Don't trust anyone
It all fades with the sun
Hope is fake
It died with the snake
And all that chose to use me
Soon i will be free
And i will be dead
With all the demons inside my head
Author's Notes/Comments:
Out of all the people i know there is only one i trust. I have no faith in any religion and have no hope. I have never been married have no kids and don't want any ever. I would rather be alone that be a part of someone elses cruel intentions which i have experienced many times before and seen in both sides of my family. If god exists he only makes me suffer. To a past with no control at the hands of another. I know few friends only one i would call brother. Why am i still alive why am i here.
Am i not already dead have i not made myself clear.
Still no answer.
Only death decay and cancer.
Or am i just drunk.
Thrown away with the rest of the junk.
The past doesn't mean anything.
Only the future of pain it will bring.
Dark and cold in my heart.
As all the pieces fall apart......
It feels like my life has been reduced to axiety and depression on a daily basis.
My time spent homelss i learned trust people less and less.
I am not a junkie and never will be but i am surrounded by them.
Still this is far better than a shelter but feels like a prison.
No escape from death until the dead have risen.
Only hatret left inside.
Until flames turn to ash all the world outside.
My only family is my best friend
Everyone else used and abandoned me
For the longest time i believed i deserved to be treated like shit
Now i don't know what to believe anymore......
