Numb, but still no relief
Who now can pull me back from the edge?
Life sentence never sounded so deadly
Happy memories never caused such suffering
And I still feel so fucking lucky
Amongst all the pain I feel so blessed.
Confusion in thinking
and feeling
and how I'm not dead,
So grateful
yet broken
and full of regret,
No sense to be made 'cause there's no fucking logic
Hearts are a curse and brains are stupid
Please wish me luck and never forget
This gave you a life, it gave me the end.