sometimes i get stuck on a logic problem for days.. a team weeks
weeks.. a tema months
months a team years
i focus as much rage as i can
onto the wall between
problem and solution
doubt feeds me
fuels me
and i have yet to be stopped by any dream
until i met those god damned occupiers
who spoke things and dreamt
of other things
i hate sales
because to be good at it one must
bend truth
and bending truth in the mind
makes defeating
impossible technological challenges
more difficult
problem solving means
giving infinitely of yourself
to the problem
squeezing years
into moments
and fueling problem
solving with pain
right nwo i am working on three problems
i have solutions
but i want the most
elegant ones
to prevent future problems
modularly plan
in five year increments
thats what they trained me to do
bourne had it so easy
with guns
imagien if you had to solve every problem
in existence with a cell phone and
email
one day they made me wear workman clothes
to increase my invisibility
at work
it had an effect they did not anticipate
withotu a suit i had no identity
muslim wore them my whole life
the first time i wore a pair of sneakers outside a gym class
i had already graduated high school
i wear them at work now for the second time ever i think
i am not writing i am working
in my mind
even as i type
so these are my author's notes
to make everything have no challenge at all
is my challenge
the world is a system
and reality has no doors
a long distance race
shorter with will
