I've begun to see now how I've added up,
No matter what they always say I do so much,
How can I repay you, for all you've done for me?
My reply is always nothing, your friendship is all I need.
But sometimes in life there's something just not there,
No matter how hard I try, I just can't make them aware,
I need more in my life, I do indeed have a heart,
But whenever I try to hold your hand, you make me fall apart.
You always came to me first, said I was your best friend,
Those moments you held me, I hoped would never end,
The tears you shed always left a mark on my shoulders,
The second I profess the feelings, I see everything start to smolder.
I just can't figure out why I'm not used to this already,
Getting turned down and the rejections are the only thing that's steady,
But no matter what I take the load whenever your world gets heavy,
I think I found out that wanting love for me is just senseless and petty.