That look
I hate
-you know how I feel.
But you don’t get it.
It would never work
but I want this
You know I do.
But that look.
You act as though you can see me but you can’t.
You don’t know anything.
But you do.
Painfully, as I recall
you witnessed my change and my downfall.
You know I’d do anything to escape the sight of you.
Because I’ve failed you.
I scarred you with a memory you’d burn to forget.
So don’t act so surprised
when you find me looking in your eyes
then quickly look away
I saw your pain.
The pain I caused
The pain I can’t erase
The pain I cannot face.