He hurt me so much
made me cry for so many nites
Yet i still can't seem to get over him
been trying to tell myself that he's not worth it
but there where the times when he
can make you feel your best that you could ever be
he hurted me because of what he didn't see
caused me pain from what he didn't do
blinded to see the mistakes
clueless about what is happening on the inside of me
I stand here in the cold darkness
sometimes i wonder why i am still here grieving over this loss
then it came to me
he was different
one of a kind
unlike others i have known
Like they say "there are plenty of fish in the sea"
but what if this was the fish i was meant to keep
my tears dropping into the ocean of life
these are the chances of ever finding them
are as certain as having the fish i let go swim back to me
It tears me apart whenever i look into his eyes
they are glossed
souless and dead
Seems that the special place in his heart for me is gone
what have i done
Have i created a mistake
been blind to my own actions
and clueless about his feelings inside?
I will never know why this seperation has caused
it is going to be a while before I finally get up
and leave
So afraid to go
He took a part of me and ran away
I want it back
there would be no me withought it
there must not be a empty hole inside my heart
I will keep searching
one day another fish will give that peice back
and i would live my life and move on
then find those tear drops i have lost in the ocean
He won't hurt me no more
Change withought.. to without
I don't know what to say here. I kind of wish this girl who likes me to think of finding a new fish too. Such intence love, something i never found yet...*sigh...