i cut myself today
to see if i still felt pain.
pain i haven't felt it in so long.
the sweet pain,
the sweet pain you gave me,
pain I love.
the cuts in my wrists,
are something i cant resist.
the pain showed through,
for my wrists i slit through.
so much pain,
i think it hit the vein.
yes, more pain.
more pain
closer to
death.
i wonder,
how much pain
I can take
before the
last
blood spill
drops
and i
collapse.