Youre dead; youre gone forever.
Nothing I do can reverse
the flow of this dirty river.
Now my only hope is to traverse
this calculated legal system
that has me so hopelessly ensnared.
I know I'll always miss him
Because I know he truly cared.
Who will walk her down the aisle?
Who will spoil my childeren?
I've yet to walk so many miles
without my closest of kin.
I'm so sorry for what I did.
I regret it everday.
I knew I was sick,
that my hands were tied, throat was flayed.
I just wanted to make you proud.
Can't that be enough?
I wanted to stand out from the crowd,
to show that I was tough.
In the end, however, I was broken.
Unable to stop the madness
that made my life so trite, so token,
so filled with crushing sadness.
Here I'm reminded of my mistakes
reflections in a cracked mirror
I wish it was my life the gods decided to take;
I'm really not a killer.