i wonder why
i lay in silence
still and not asleep
parched for some agenda
to scribble into this fine evening
life the canvas
to paint with such vibrance
depth in my uncertainty
of what else could be
could feel as warm
and do no harm
an image neutral
blank opaque placebo
starves my hollow pockets
clasps of indecent vitality
surround a deaf monologue
steal me from this lifeless
don't let this get too contagious
stones in oceans never leave
cross out my pretensions
form a boat and float away
singals now can't reach me
stop the car, the circuit's breaking
find me
not analgous
but pragmatic
lying smiling hypacrite
fervent suckling bombshell
my case has been omitted
weaned into modest routines