So many years with things so painful
Now bottled up and reclusive
I am a man. Tired of sacrificing needs
I hate the games, the doubts; my stomach in knots
Why again? Why me? Why do I open my heart? Why trust?
Too many scars. My walls turned to crystal.
Please be gentle.
Decisions, decisions. Alone or vulnerable?
Say never again and laugh at myself. So weak!
I must decide, but have no strength left.