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Thinking....
As I sit here and think,
Three days in to a new year,
Here’s what I know.
Oct. 2009 changed my life,
I tell you this now because its time to share it,
Or maybe just write it down for myself.
I went in for a surgery and I had my hopes way to high for something new,
All it did is brake my heart,
For the passed year I have been trying to find ways to fix this,
But I think I know now,
There’s a part of me that will never be the same,
It’s like a part of me died that month I was in the hospital,
I am not the same person.
This is the first time in over a year I am sitting and really writing something.
Mom I am sorry, I was really hoping for something better for myself. . . Like feeling better and no pain! Mom thanks for loving me and being by my side. . . You are always there when I need you, I love you so much!
Tom You are always there! Thanks for being there for mom when I make things hard. And OMG, thanks for picking up the phone when you are far away, I love you so much!
To my sisters I am sorry; I know its hard having a sister that is sick all the time. And OMG I know I need to be a better auntie to the beautiful babies. It’s just hard sometimes to be around them. It makes me sad; my body is too tired to have my own sweet baby. So sometimes I think it is better to just stay away! But just know I love you all so much.
Grams I love you so much and you are my rock! I am going to start calling more again!
Chad OMG, what can I say! You are so amazing and I Love U so much! You are why I get up in the morning to fight one day at a time. I don’t do it for me anymore, I am just too tired. But to see your face I will fight!
To my sweet friends OMG, I am so sorry! I have not been a good friend! ! I am going to try my best to call and write more! ! Just know I am always here for you!
That is what I know and I love you!
2011
Misty Yanish
