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I won't take much of your time and I am not here to beg. I just wanted some of your time and to see whats inside your head. I am not asking for much, i feel that is not attainable. I want someone to want me and love me hard as he can.

I know that things are a process and we should take things slow; however there is this connection that I can't just shake away. Don't get too attached is what I tell myself. What if he is just like the rest? Play with my head and toil in  soul. Wanting things that just won't make me whole. Giving all my time, affection, and this sweet sugar. Becuase you know they always want that sugar. I am just saying how I feel, but do take it lightly. I can you all my sugar if you was my honey.

Can I just tell you that he is amazing and not in a sexual sense. Intellecutally, he is so fine. He is so encouraging, endearing, confident, and affectionate. He is a rare jew so mature and mesmerizing. Caring, understanding, and just down right fine. You see I had to say it twice.

His smile is bright and beautiful. If time stood still or if I was on the moon, I could see his smile shining so effortlessly. I could go on and on about him but I am always on guard. I can't let him know that then I will look weak. He will think that I am crazy for thinking this way or feeling like this. Honestly, I knew he was different since our first text.

I am just rambling becuase I tend to do that from time to time. However, he may feel or think, he will never know how these feelings inside. I am scared of getting hurt or being abuse. Never let him see you care, is what I tell myself. "Stay neutral and don't be too expressive" is what I tell myself. "You never know what he is thinking".

Insecurities keep replaying in my head. "What if he doesn't feel how I feel?". " He might see me and think I am not worth his time." I pushed those thoughts way into the abyss of my mind.

"Always remember don't get attached, you won't get hurt"." Don't get attached, you won't get hurt". "If you get attached, you will get hurt".