longing through embers
the ashes of yesterday
all my smoke rings backwards to the sky
I know why I can't have what I crave
measured through raw jackass agility
your halo molds over my frown
this isn't even painful anymore
suffering like rebirth
the angles of crude youth
all mine to devour quickly
angel eyes and i'm not here anymore
I can feel another threshold of dead language
leaving me like a splinter's inelegance
I can see the pale lit bedroom window
feels like fire at my fingertips
where I can't fly, I'll just climb
something lovely possessing me so thoroughly
I can taste winter on my cracked lips
like sour sentencing, the prisoner to his cage
i'm not here for you, i'm not there for me
just bring her home, I'm overthrown to heartache
who feels the same, who needs the shame
i'm so used to four wall paradise
this new shade of despondency
all by myself for years to come