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Greenlight
I don't want to live like this,
feeling like every time i shoot i just miss,
empty and dying,
slowly decaying,
till there is nothing,
but sadness of fading.
Just when i feel like i just hit a bottom,
ending a fall that i don't know why followed,
rolling on floor,
seeing a room hollow,
agony feeding me,
trying to set me free.
After a night,
a sleepless fight,
wanted to recover,
stand up and discover,
or at least die already,
without this pain, thinking "That is such blasphemy!".
And for some reason, the death didn't come,
so no peacefull rest for me, no, can't get some!
I stand up, my knees shaking,
10 minutes ago, i have been my life forsaking!
What the hell did i expect?!
Thinking what happened, was that a ressurect?
I look around, noticing something dark,
well, everything is, i can't even see my mark!
But then, i notice something bright, like a light,
What is this feel, i think it's delight!
But this is hell,
just feel this smell,
it is like rotten flesh,
nothing like something fresh.
How could this be?
How could this happen to me?
Hidden in darkest place,
found maybe biggest grace,
such thing happens just twice,
or maybe not, maybe its way too nice,
maybe its all just spice,
in my empty life of suffice.
Whatever may it be,
i ain't letting it free,
I'm gonna find it,
then catch it,
then kill it and watch it,
watching it die,
untill it is time,
for saying goodbye.
And so have I listened,
run towards it with a plan only wispered,
because all the flames,
hearing empty blames,
want to cut to chase,
and leave the games.
I catch the light,
It is green light,
coloured like sapphire,
leaving me with fire.
Withstand the beauty of allmighty light!
Shining thru darkness, filling the whole night!
Behold the beauty,
blunt and still moody,
fading and crying,
and never surviving.
How many greenlights already had to die?
Succumbed by evil,
sins of man either,
Why is it so,
my mind wants to know?
And so greenlight faded,
died and degraded,
untill there was nothing,
but me just all rushing.
Left in the darkness,
hollow and heartless,
because time took everything,
I could have and could not feel.
