He wonders why I'm hard to love.
When love chose drugs
she left me alone as one
it's simple subtraction
as division corrupts.
Struck-
right in the heart
again, again, again,
until I was literally forced apart.
Physically she was given a new heart
for a new life to start.
And there.. you are;
I've come so far.
He's just another some-one or another
striving for a happy ending slumber.
Penny for the pepper-spray to make him stay.
He paid the price; I'm smarter than they say.
When they claim I hurt them, I remember the pain
learning, from actions to this day
Can I predict the habits of a trend?
Roll the dice?
Poker Face for the men.
Educated guess says they'll fuck up what comes next!
Must you play your cards right?
Overcompensating, Red flags in sight.
Everyone want's to see me
oh' so nice!
But that's not always real life.
Another lesson-
tempers' testin'
lies right to my eyes
disguised over time,
but these blue eyes ain't blind;
and in time I find:
One cannot deciet me
when there is nothing in this world
that I feel bleakly.