I listened to the way your hands held mine.
I painted upon a canvas every time your eyes opened doors in my mind-
that I thought had been sealed shut with mortar and bricks.
I lived thru the nights
when alone I'd sit
and remember how you told me
you lived memories, like these too.
I waited patiently
as you went about
and found other women
who wanted to play.
Hell some times I'd leave my house at dusk
and return at the dawn of a new day.
I gave myself credit
for the shit I've been through
and I'd make my memories
the way a free bird would do.
I became a full version of myself,
but in the background you stayed-
like a journal half written in,
just waiting for me to write our story
to the very last page.
I picked up my pen and thought of you.
You called me (to meet up)
the first time we ever met
your aloof personality held a humorous phone conversation
I'll never forget.
You showed me
who you were and what you did:
colliding energies like
merging galaxies
behind my closed eye lids.
Blinded.
You hesitated
when you presd the glass of red wine
upon your lips,
and then you told me
as if it were the only chance you would get to say
"I love you" and you spoke poetry in prose
letting me know
the love you felt for me
was deep
like the depths of a canyon,
you wanted to explore me,
and *how) my thunder shook you
from within
making you want to pounce unto me
every time my lightning blue eyes looked into yours
the way a panther opens hers-
after a long slumber
and I made you want to learn more,
as you searched the forest for the key
to the heart of me.