Here I sit
alone on this bed
surrounded by memories
reading my words left unsaid.
I've never been one to stay disconnected
from my heart to my head.
Has my sadness went away,
or have I really shut my feelings out and given in, and moved on, instead?
I see all these words, poems, art, and photographs
it's absurd.
I don't feel a connection,
I don't feel recognition.
Just memories of how I used to feel deep inside,
exposed, right in front of my eyes.
And here I sit,
ready to begin again
writing the words of the past
all left unsaid.
I can feel connected
from my heart to my head
time has shown me connections
each time I try and try again.
Maybe it's blessings
or just lifes lessons
who knows
maybe if I forgive my past sadness
I'll get to go to heaven.
Oh look,
It's 11:11.