I'm constantly filled with dread
even for something
that should be enjoyable.
I can't bring myself
to look forward to anything
even seeing long lost friends.
Maybe it has to do with you
and how you have treated me
like less than a friend
when I used to trust you completely.
Your sideways glances
make me feel less than human,
make me think what I have to say
carries no significance.
I wish I would't weigh my value
on people like you
who have consistently hurt me.
If only I knew someone
I could trust again
without ending in disappointment.