I still taste you on my lips,
a mixture of smoke
and loneliness.
I’m not sure anymore
if I ever loved you,
or if you were a cancer
I didn’t want to treat.
You invaded my skin
and spread to my heart
until I was breathless
when not in your presence.
I could have inhaled you
all of my life
even if you killed me.
But you were just
a smoke screen,
a lie disguised a love,
a vanishing vapor.
When the air cleared,
you had disappeared
and I was left with just
the ashes of my heart...
and a disease that
would eat away at
my confidence
for the rest of my life.
Rewrite 2012
I still taste you on my lips,
a mixture of smoke
and desperation.
I’m not sure anymore
if I ever loved you,
or if you were a cancer
I didn’t want to treat.
You invaded my skin
and spread to my heart
until I was breathless
when not in your presence.
I could have inhaled you
all of my life
even if you killed me.
But you were just
a smoke screen,
a lie disguised as love,
a vanishing vapor.
When the air cleared,
you had disappeared
and I was left with
the ashes of a charred heart...
and a disease that
will eat away at
my confidence
for the rest of my life.