You can't get it up for me;
it hurts me to my core
because it feels personal.
All my body insecurities
like how my tummy is not flat
make me feel undesirable.
Your impotency was as much
my fault as it was yours,
I left you without confidence.
You resigned yourself
to not making me happy
and we spent time idling.
We continued co-existing,
going through the motions,
falling out of love daily.
I started looking elsewhere
to fulfill my needs
and you caught me red-handed.
You thought I stopped,
but I just got better
at hiding what I did.
I always blamed you
for driving me to cheat,
but my hand was on the wheel.