You were everything to me-
my beginning and my end,
my calm and my chaos.
You were my whole world,
and it ceased revolving
when your voice stopped
spinning in my mind.
You knew you were
my gravity, my grounding,
and you reveled in it.
You got off on this hold
that you had on me,
this attachment I clung to.
And when I finally accepted
that you were destroying me,
I voiced my farewell.
You cavalierly repeated
"If you say so" over and over,
dismissing my final words
and implying your power over me.
And God, you know how hard
it is to say goodbye,
the hollowness I feel
without you in my life.
Despite time and distance,
you will continue to
control me like hypnosis.