You ruined my life
that fateful night;
everything I worked for
came crashing down.
Now six years later
you still lord it over me-
you know you were first
to dominate my body.
There's a pull toward you
that I can never deny
since the day we first spoke
and you called me gorgeous.
You, who could have any girl,
peeked into my world;
your stare both revived me
and killed me at the same time.
To have a man see me,
not anyone, someone like you,
changed the trajectory
of my life forever.
I'll never be the same;
I'll look in the mirror
and one day see an inkling
of what you once saw.
I'll find that self-assurance
which you talked about,
the confidence that
you carried so well.