I sold myself
to the (lowest) bidder.
I didn't think
I was worth much.
I believed that
no one would
find value in me.
So I just said fuck 'em
and gave in to the man
knocking on my door.
I knew it was reckless;
I knew it would wreck me.
But I didn't care.
I'd do just about anything
to keep from feeling numb.
So I succumbed.
And I could regret it
but given a second chance,
I'd likely do it again.
So I own up my mistakes
and try to learn from them.
There was something in me
that needed more.
And though sex wasn't love
it was the closest thing
I had to intimacy.