I've been tuning you out-
putting on headphones
to have you at a distance.
I've been resorting to
mindless entertainment
to keep my thoughts at bay.
I've been going
through the motions,
letting apathy take hold.
I got into the habit
of blaming you
for all my shortcomings.
I regret my decision
to give up on this marriage
while you were giving your all.
I need to start making an effort
to focus on your needs
instead of my selfishness.