There I go ruining
the only good thing
I've ever had.
I got the one I wanted
but it's not perfect
and I still want more.
Leave it to me
to be unsatisfied
when I have the fairy tale.
You are the dream
I always had,
but it isn't how I imagined.
I have all the love
in the world but
something's missing.
And so I betrayed you
and lusted for another,
a former fling.
Now to look you in the eye
utterly destroys me,
to hurt you this way.
I'm pushing you away
and it's my own damn fault-
I'm the one that's flawed.
I'm the one that's broken;
I'm the reason this is
so close to falling apart.